Some people believe holding on and hanging in there are signs of great strength. However, there are times when it takes much more strength to know when to let go and then do it.
A few weeks ago, I had a conversation with a friend about letting go. Letting go of the ego feeling that makes you want things to be a certain way and if they are not that way, being upset about it. We talked about taking things as they come, working with what is there, not letting it mean so much.
I have come to a point in my life when that is exactly what I need to comprehend – how to let go. There are so many dreams and hopes that are clearly not going to happen. Even I – who is a firm believer in second or third or even fourth chances – sees that in some areas of my life all those chances have been used up.
It is a funny feeling. I still can’t quite grasp it. I am at a fundamental shift in my life and you know what? I don’t like it. Not one bit. The issue is, that won’t change anything. How it is, is how it is and I am going to have to live with that but I am not dealing with it very well.
I need to “recreate” my life and my goals. It occurs to me that I have never lived without a “goal”. I was either waiting to get older, or waiting to get a singing job, or waiting to get the next singing job, or waiting to get or have or do whatever. In a way they were all goals. Now I feel like the rug has been pulled out from under me and I feel like I am falling into the abyss (ever the over dramatic!).
The plan is to meditate on it. Deepok Chopra says to meditate on “Who am I? What do I want for my life?” so I thought I would give it a try. Can’t hurt. It can only get better than this.